LOML
11/29/2007
For what sakes and sorrows, true love meant, now gone and what's left is regret
Given to the wind and rain are the memories of things past and times best forgotten
Now shadows in darkened corridors behind closed doors in windowless rooms
Panes of broken glass, murky and etched, no way to see clearly

Pain and remembrance go hand in hand
The past wounds heal but leave behind scars
Lesions on our hearts and carnage to our souls
Weight to our minds and fodder for the cold

But it is said, time heals and life goes on
New tacks for lifes altered journey, rife with uncertainty
Giving us new direction by which we must abide
No maps to go by and no one by our sides

Deliver us from evil
Deliver us from our sins
Give us strengths for our weaknesses
And deliver us from pettiness that comes from within
- Robbyson

LOML
11/28/2007
For what sakes and sorrows, true love meant, now gone and what's left is regret
Given to the wind and rain are the memories of things past and times best forgotten
Now shadows in darkened corridors behind closed doors in windowless rooms
Panes of broken glass, murky and etched, no way to see clearly

Pain and remembrance go hand in hand
The past wounds heal but leave behind scars
Lesions on our hearts and carnage to our souls
Weight to our minds and fodder for the cold

But it is said, time heals and life goes on
New tacks for lifes altered journey, rife with uncertainty
Giving us new direction by which we must abide
No maps to go by and no one by our sides

Deliver us from evil
Deliver us from our sins
Give us strengths for our weaknesses
And deliver us from pettiness that comes from within
- Robbyson

Falling Star
12/26/2006
Like a star
Losing my light
Falling through
the cold dark night
Never again
to shine from afar
I'm just a fading, falling star.
- Sandy G

It Can't Be...
10/16/2006
It Can't Be...

That love has forsaken me.
That empty nights stand in lieu of blessed nights.
That a sadness above all sadness will take the place of happiness so aspired.
That to live will be to breath in a world without passion once shared.

It Can't Be...

That embraces will be no more.
That emotionless glances will extinguish all dreams of happy ever after.
That farewell to hearts will follow desirous unions.
That love once shared by two is a love now fractured in time

It Can't Be!
- Ginette Bailey

Goodbye Yellow Brick Road
10/11/2006
Goodbye Yellowbrick Road


At some point, in everyone's life, we all have to say goodbye to things.

Things we love.

Things we need.

Things we want.

Is like walking this long road. And all along you had someone next to you.

When it was raining, they were right there beside you, getting wet, but not minding the rain.

When the sun was rising, they were there. Watching the first burst of sunlight hitting their face.

And you thought: How curious....the way that light shines down on her....



And when the sun came down, she did not mind it was getting dark. "Its ok she said....Tomorrow is another day"

And all along,you walked through fields of gold. You thought: The autumn never felt so sweet.

The sky was never that blue.

One sunset, we ran into a split in the road....

And I looked behind me, and I saw the valleys, the fields, the roads that we had walked.

And I thought: Such a long way we have come.....

And I noticed I was alone.

And I went back to look for you.

I thought, Where Did I leave you?? Where did we loose each other?

But it was no use. I could not find you.

So I went back to the divide in the road.

And I felt I was lost.

I noticed that the sun was rising. And I saw you waiving goodbye to me.

You were smiling.

I did not know why...

Why would you say goodbye??

I thought: If I run fast enough, I could reach her..I can be near her

But the road was long, and I knew you were happy. It was time to say goodbye.

So now I walk through new fields.

Tonight,I was looking at the sunset, and I thought of you.

I Wondered: Where would I go on the road??

And I was on top of the cliff.

And I saw your shadow casting over a winter sky....

And I said: Goodnight and good luck.



- Jose Zaldivar

You And Only You
06/30/2006
You are my life
Your hair bright shining like the sun
Without you I am no one

Your lips
Redder than a rose
A rose full of color
No rose can compare to you

Your eyes
The color of the ocean
On a misty day

To see you cry
I would rather die one thousand
Deaths

Your smile is like a beautiful
Rainbow
One smile from you blows me away

You only you
Are the reason I live



- Clara

Why?.....
01/05/2006
God gave a gift to me,
a love to ease the pain,
but now he's pushing me aside
and the pain begins again.

How can he choose a life alone
instead of one with me,
even with my ups and downs
how lousy could it be?

Now I face my future a circle
broke apart,
not wanting to face my life alone,
just with my broken heart.
- Amanda

on your side
11/28/2005
If a simple word could only heal your pain
If you had nothing and no person to blame
You would be ready for what I have to give
Your heart would be open and really let you live
You would begin to see the future is bright
That the moon and stars still shine at night
One day when you wake up the sun will be the guide
To let you know all this time God was on your side
- trish

Love
08/07/2005
Love can be defined as so many different things.
The person that holds it can only define it.
Love is so many wonderful feelings, emotions,
Thoughts, actions, sayings, gestures and many more.

Love to me is waking in the morning and seeing the
One that you love and adore, kissing and hugging her.
Sharing that first cup of coffee, emails, shower, and all.
Love is seeing something beautiful on the way to work
And calling her to share that special moment.
Love is also the way one feels towards the other.
How they place them on a temple and worship them.
I have loved my wife from the first day that I had met her.
I was fortunate to not only form that special bond with her,
But was also able to form it with her children.
What more could a man ask for than the total feeling
Of acceptance from not only his woman, but the kids as well.
I love all the special moments that we have shared
Through out the years, all the different comings and goings
That has happened. There have been the bad times, but we have
Worked through most of them. We are currently separated,
And right now I sure am missing all those wonderful feelings
And all the moments that we once shared. I wish to the world
I could go back and change things that has occurred to fix the
All the wrongs that has happened. But only time will tell.
If love is strong enough, Can it overcome all problems and snares?
Being in the position I am now, I can only hope and pray that
It can and will. Because right now I am missing my loved ones
So very much. I do love each and every one of you very much.

- Duane Holman

Reality
08/07/2005
Disbelief, Sadness, Anger,
Depression, Sense of loss
Going crazy, pain!
Make it all go away, at any cost!

What started out slow and easy,
Simple and free,
Wasted away slowly
It is killing me!

Intermingling families,
Starting from scratch.
It seemed all was great
A perfect match!

Our weekend get aways,
Our family affairs.
Such wonderful times,
Now no one cares!

It hit last night
Like a knife in my heart!
REALITY showed up
Of it I want no part!

Please help make it better
Make it seem less real.
I dont want to make tonight
My one last meal!


- Duane Holman

Hope
08/07/2005
Walking the tracks, to take his own life,
Or cutting himself with a pocket knife
He lost the hearts from those who cared
Now to the point, hes running scared.

With all thats been done, troubles abound,
Loneliness sets in, no family around.
During this time, thoughts go through his mind
Why in the world was he left behind.

Reality sets in and anger subsides,
Troubled thoughts within his insides.
Life, becomes troubled, snares began
Possibly facing a life of a divorced man

Yes, marriage started out full of bliss
Happy and carefree, with nothing amiss.
Those were the most wonderful times
Long before he committed his crimes

It all did hit me, in the middle of the night
When reality hit full force, nothing was right
I had to seek help, when loosing my fight
Loosing my mind, all in its own right

His family and friends, give him ample support
To assist him with life so he doesnt fall short
He sits and waits, looking for a white knight
Only to find, everythings going to be all right


- Duane Holman

Seperate Ways
08/07/2005
It started as a flirt, with our two fresh hearts
We grew to friendship, with smiles of joy
It began to grow, with compassion and care
Then love began, with hearts wide open


It became love, with hearts Divine
It started to fail, with distance abrupt
It fell apart, with thoughts of difference
It's difference was love, with two separate ways
It was gone, with two separate lives
It was always love, with no where to go
It can be rekindled, with hope to grow
But remains with doubt, little chance to glow.
If it's to riegn, it must be thought through
Because to have love, it takes a party of two

- Duane Holman

Access to Her Heart
08/07/2005
When I look into your eyes
I can see what I have done.
I can see the hurt and the anger
Can it really be, could it be that I see?


Nothing but mistrust, and doubt.
It is for sure, not what I want there
But it is what I have placed there.
Now I have to come to the realization
And come to terms with myself
And find a way to mend all that I have done
In order for me to mend these areas
I must have access to them.
Without access, I have no ammo.
No ammo to battle the fight
Of restoring what I have done.
I really want to fix, and replace
All the hurt and anger I have placed
In that beautiful heart of yours
With sunshine, hope, love and happiness.
Give me that chance My Love

- Duane Holman

Red, White Rose For You
08/07/2005
If a Red rose sends kindness and passion
A white rose sends love and humility.
Then a dozen red and white mix to fashion
These given together, signify unity.


Sending these to you from the bottom of my heart
Hoping to find a way to mend the hurt within you
Healing from within, wishing for a fresh start
I send these few roses, in an effort to get through
Finds the love that remains in the depths of your heart

- Duane Holman

The Cost of Love
08/07/2005
We started an affair and had a great ball,
Sneaking and hiding and enjoying it all.
The following year, we both got divorced
And with in another year our love was endorsed.


We tied our two families, and made us one big clan
If I had to do it all over, I would do it again.
Over the years, we have had some great times,
Too many a times, we have had the bad ones too.
We moved out of state, To give us a fresh start
Only to find, that we began to loose heart.
We have fought through financial, even despair.
Somewhere along the line we were no longer a pair.
We've had more bad times than ever thought good.
The trouble ignited, like smoldering wood,
We fought more and more, and loved even less,
So I tried to reach out to prevent the regress.
I made up a story, in an attempt to save us.
Only for it to backfire and start to destroy us.
I have tried to repair what I have done so far
Only it has gotten worse like a big shooting star.
My jealous heart, has caused you much pain,
That I do not know, if you'll ever be mine again.
I have said some harsh words, pretty mean ones at that,
With all my other faults, the list is getting very fat.
I know I have done wrong, even ask to go back
To the time that we were pretty, happy and smack.
I have ask for forgiveness from the one that I love
Only because, she does not deserve what I have done.
I am only human, just a mere mortal man
That I find it very hard, when there is another man.
I know that we have done wrong, form both of our hearts
But where do we go, when all is said and done.
There is to be a babe, I know it's not mine,
But I am very willing, to treat it as mine.
Life is a rock, and it's dropped us down hard
Please for both of our sakes, don't treat it like lard.
Eleven years later, (nine of them married) last three were
tough.
Some major events made them look pretty rough.
Through theft, surgery, fires, moves and lack of strong
love
For a mere feeble attempt to strengthen our existing love
All hell has broken loose, nothing good to speak of.
I now am paying dearly, for the cost of my love.
I again ask that we both try, to repair all we have done
We can kiss and make up, as our love tackles each one.

- Duane Holman

Rejected Love
08/07/2005
Remembering when things were oh so sweet
Embracing each other, life is so complete
Joyous time spent in each other's arms
Eventually Love grew beyond all charms

Circle of love never to be broken
Troubles arrive and things become unspoken
Even with love, it all comes to an end
Desperately reaching out to depend
Loyalty falls, distrust begins
Overall ending, no one grins
Vastly broken, never to be repaired
Each other's love totally undeclared

- Duane Holman

Deadbeat Husband and Father
08/07/2005
Picture this, father, wife, and eight loving children
What should be a happy, carefree, and simple trend?
Torn apart by the husbands neglect chagrin,
Hearts ripped to shreds, souls never to mend.


One that had no care, concerns, or thought,
Took from the others, without remorse.
Expects to be forgiven, for being distraught.
Realization hits home, as she seeks a divorce.

Lives turned upside down, inside out
Still he seeks excuses, trying to lay blame
To continue his havoc, when he is without doubt
Trying to gain from someone, as if it was a game.

Now the healing, hoping they come through
Sitting back awaiting any new results
Throughout the stages of healing, love does accrue
But they refuse to take any more insults

As the healing turns the family back towards love
He realizes that they did this without him there
The family is as one again after being deprived of
The one that they were to rely on. For there care.

- Duane Holman

Counting Higher than Three
04/28/2005
one, two, three....just like that

my future, my vision
independent, doing it, making it, alone
unyielding, set in stone

my way or no way
in control, dominating
know everything, know it all

rules are for everyone else
and mine to break
always right, never wrong

don't look at me, it's you
take, take, take
I need more

bigger, smarter, stronger
skin thick and hardened
no one gets in

hear me speak
loud and clear
draw the crowd near

sing, dance, whatever it takes
watch me, watch me
such a sight to see

the show, the party
it's over
now it's done

alone I sit, merely a shell
outwardly smiling
soulfully dying

one, two, three.....just like that.

- Valerie

When you left
09/16/2004
When you left............
When you left A part of me died,That I can never regain,
when I look deep inside I still feel the pain,
I know that one day it will all go away,just like you did
- Candace

Limbo
09/11/2004
Where is this place that I am?
Where am I that I have no control?
Why don't I know my way out of it...
This dreadful place that eats at my soul?
My feelings pulled me here into limbo,
My desires keep me here in this place.
My thoughts are like a snare at my feet,
And all I want right now is to see your face.
Am I insane to ensnare myself like this?
With hopes and thoughts, desires and needs.
Or am I waiting here without true reason?
Trapped in this place that on my soul feeds.
- Bob-Bob

A Prayer Of Hope
09/08/2004
Dear God,
Strengthen my heart,
Sharpen my mind,
Protect my body,
And empower my desire,
So I'll once again
find hope.
- Anonymous

The Open Sea
09/08/2004
Scanning the horizon I see but open space
as far as the eye can see
Behind me the wreckage of desolation,
waste what was but not will be.

The surrounding swells
ebbs and flows of life
I loose the moorings,
free to sail another friendly tide
'cross the vast and open sea.
- Spectrum